I feel as if I have a lot on my shoulders. It is literally aching. Probably due to my sleeping position. The burden of doing well in poly is taking a toll on me. Yes it is a burden. It is not something I see that will help me in the future, yet it is not exactly pointless. Of course I am nowhere near. Am I even trying? I can't even tell. There's always distractionzzzz, the lack of motivation, and seeing how others work harder than me puts me off to such extend. I am never focus. I can't sit still for long without falling asleep/ I am not even sure what I am passionate about anymore. Everyday is a chore. I have all these internal conflicts that always turn to external conflicts. How many more nights like this do I need? I fear, so terribly, of what will happen. And it is this fear, that stops me every. single. time. I do not need these to take over me, but it just keeps repeating in my head, and the only way I stopped thinking about these things is when I sleep.
I, also, have a fear of using big words. I, also, feel that using simple words is suffice to express myself.
Seeing that I'll be planning the next SS event with Nat & Aaron, I'm excited but worried at the same time.
I ever thought of dropping one exco, but which one?
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Naw it's just that time of the month again. That's all.
I, also, have a fear of using big words. I, also, feel that using simple words is suffice to express myself.
Seeing that I'll be planning the next SS event with Nat & Aaron, I'm excited but worried at the same time.
I ever thought of dropping one exco, but which one?
Naw it's just that time of the month again. That's all.