So all these stream of consciousness which should have been in one post are now not. This is a new post. This, this very word I'm typing are all inside my head, my thoughts, taking a one slow step at a time, as my fingers, my hands, try to catch up with what my thoughts, or are my thoughts trying to catch up with my fingers banging itself on this keyboard. Which brings us to the ultimatum existential question: chicken or egg first? Egg or chicken first?